Sophia “Trapped” on Behalf of Women

Sophia "Trapped" drawing by nakedpastor David Hayward

Sophia “Trapped” drawing by nakedpastor David Hayward


I thought it was time to repost this graphic drawing of Sophia “Trapped” and its meditation. Here it is:

“I am beautiful.

I am free.

I am wise.

I am Sophia.

How did I get here?
How did I come to this?
Why am I in these chains?
Why am I locked in a dark cellar surrounded
by things that degrade and dehumanize me?

Especially words. Words that are meant to shame, subdue and enslave me.

And they do
because I let them.

Confession: I entered into this relationship because I wanted to. I was not forced. It was my choice. I was free. Although I couldn’t have known at the time, I was also free to submit myself to a cruel master hiding in wait behind beautiful promises.

I signed up for this. But I had no idea what “this” was.

It was a craftily laid trap!

But my wisdom was young. Like a child’s. My trust was naive. Like a child’s.

For a long time I believed that things weren’t really that bad.
Then when I realized they were, I hoped that I could, with endless effort,
change them.
Finally, I had to admit: I was trapped.

Yes, I walked into it. No, I did not mean to be caged.

My exterior life was poor.
However, my inner life was rich.

And somehow I knew, I just knew,
that one day this would release me, liberate me, and save me.

Indeed, I would save myself!”


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7 Responses

  1. Karla says:

    thank you

  2. Caryn LeMur says:

    I remember this drawing of yours… perhaps from before or from your book.

    It is so sad to realize the damage that the Bible can do when used by men (or women) to ensure that men retain the driver’s seat in the church.

    I loved power and status when I was young. I enjoyed all the responsibility that went with it. Over time, I learned first-hand that power deafens and corrupts the value of other people.

    I think that is why the Bible also says “In Christ Jesus, there is neither male nor female” in the Letter to Galatians. When sex/gender is thrown out of the power equation, then the church becomes living, listening, and not demeaning along the lines of sex or gender.

    Are you a woman and gifted as a Pastor or Prophet? Wonderful! Do it!

    Are you a man and gifted with Helping Others? Wonderful! Do it!

    And then, the Body of Christ functions fully.

    But then again, I lean towards the Book of Galatians showing a mature church, and one that could ignore the early power frameworks taught within the church.

    The goal was power to be shared.

  3. Caryn LeMur says:

    Ooops…That sentence is missing the word “me”…. as in it should have been “Over time, I learned first-hand that power deafens me and corrupts the value of other people.”

  4. Brigitte says:

    It’s not very funny in the day and age where women are held as sex slaves and trafficked all over the place.

  5. “It’s not very funny”. Who said this was funny? I’m confused.