Sarah drives to church but doesn’t go in

"Park and Drive" cartoon by nakedpastor David Hayward

“Park and Drive” cartoon by nakedpastor David Hayward

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This is one of my personal favorite cartoons I drew a few years ago. Let me tell you why I drew it.

I remember the last time I went to the church I was a member of. In fact, I was the pastor. When I drove away that day I knew our relationship was over. Deep down I just knew it.

One day a couple years later, late one evening, I parked outside the church. It was like an official revisiting of the place and my official “we’re done” moment.

It was an emotionally charged event. But I left feeling very free and peaceful.

Like Sarah here.

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6 Responses

  1. Mackan A says:

    I am currently working as a pastor, and have for a few years. But I had a period, ten years before that, working as a pastor too.

    THAT period ended in a lot of hurt, after just three years and, as mentioned before, it took some ten years to come back to serving as a pastor again. (This blog gave me the courage to come back, by the way.)

    But when I left the old Church, back in 2001, after having worshipped there for the final time, all I could feel was hurt and pain. I remember vividly locking the place up and, as I turned, remembering an old line from an angry song. “…burn it to ashes and salt the earth…” It was exactly what my heart desired at that time. That God would, in fact, wipe out the building from existrance.

    I was immature. And Young. And really hurt. And I am not proud of it. But it’s the truth, none the less.

    The congregation sort of imploded after that and had to sell the building two years later. But I still can’t have that closure moment. The building still stands as a monument over Failure and Pain and I feel uneasy every time I have to pass it. Even after all this time.

    Pray for me.

  2. Reema says:

    Religious congregation allows us to feel united (kind of like that spiritual oneness you were referring to) in our beliefs but there are other forms of communion. A mosque is primarily a place to initiate and perform collective, ritualized prayer, only on Fridays are there khudbas (sermons). Usually, the sermons are more educational than they are morally uplifting. I can’t personally relate (and I’m not trying to sit on a high horse here) but I can see why others would feel the way Sarah does.

  3. Thanks Reema. I think Sarah has finally decided that she needs to move on. Perhaps she feels her life is too controlled by others, or even by the religion, for her to achieve her own spiritual independence. I know that’s how I’ve felt many times.

  4. Helen says:

    Helen lies in bed and thinks about church but somehow she doesn’t make it to the car!

  5. Jazmin says:

    It’s been 5 years. I definitely miss church despite all the craziness. I miss the community. I know I will never experience community like that again. It pains me that my small children will probably never experience the gathering of the brethren. But there are just too many contradictions that have not been reconciled. So I find myself unable to enter.

  6. This happened in my life so many times.