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Well, it has been an interesting two and a half years since leaving the church. Let me tell you about it in a nutshell:
In May 2009 I dreamed about a waterfall in which I saw that all things are One. I knew the unity of all things. It totally transformed my brain. An immediate and lasting peace came to my mind, and all my theological, philosophical, intellectual, as well as my existential, spiritual anxiety came to an abrupt end. It died and I came alive. It was so revolutionary that my body hasn’t caught up with that revelation yet. It resists. But not for long.
This launched a series of external traumas in my life: leaving the ministry, leaving the church, losing friends and losing touch with some family, and losing my stability in ways I cannot go into here. In other words, I experienced a series of losses and a series of agonies. And I inflicted some.
As soon as I left the church, my art that was normally serene, minimalistic and moody landscapes, suddenly changed direction and I found myself drawing, with pen and pencil, a young woman. At first I didn’t understand it. It was a radical departure. But when I was drawing one called “Cave”, I suddenly realized I was drawing the journey of my own Self. I decided to call her Sophia.
Sophia, manifested as a young woman, is the journey of my Self from bondage to liberation and my attempt to be courageous and be spiritually independent. It’s my journey out of the confines and into unlimited freedom.
A couple of weeks ago, I spent a lot of time meditating on all that has happened to me. I realized the importance of my inner revolution and that it was time to order this body accordingly. It was around this time, interestingly, that I lost all inspiration to draw Sophia. I now desire to paint again, and I’ve done some new ones. I’ve concluded: Sophia has finished her journey. As in I have finished mine.
So this image “Light” is a sign that she is… I am… I have… entered the Light. I am in the Light. Completely. And it is so bright that you can’t see her. Me. Individually. Distinctly. All is One.
There is one more drawing. My wife Lisa and my daughter Casile insist there is one more to be done. They both say it is full of color… a burst of energy, life and light. Being. They are right. There is one more to draw.
Thanks for loving Sophia and her journey. Me and mine. You and yours.
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